Please give me one

Frustrated that’s what I feel right now. Frankly, I am frustrated with all the things that I am facing now. I am frustrated that I can’t get what I want after being helpless for few years. I am keeping my faith and patience but I think I am losing it especially when I saw someone who have the disabilities but still can get what I want. Or when I hear someone who do not want it but still get it and they tend to waste it.

I am more frustrated when I think I have done just about everything and still the result is zero. Why am I the chosen one. Why not give the incapability to those who really deserve it? I know it does sound rude and harsh but still I wonder why.

People always say that there is a reason behind everything that God give to us. Yes I do agree with that but I really want it to happen and I want it to happen soon. The clock is ticking and it won’t wait for me, NO.

God give me faith. I really need one right now for I can feel that my faith is slipping away.